Most days I can handle 5...
Most days I can swim quite well through the-- homework, chores, piano, reading, cooking, feeding, wiping, nursing, patching, cleaning, reminding, folding, running, and lifting --that is required when handling 5..
Most days I have moments where I look around and all 5 are getting along, happy, playing, and quiet...
Most days these moments bring a burst of warmth into my heart that reminds me why all the work is worth it...
Most days...but today was not like most days...
Today 5 was hard...
Today each one of my 5 required me all at the same time...
#5 was hungry & crying and wanted to be picked up...
#4 was crying and wanted out...
#3 had 2 little friends over and they were jumping off of the bed and causing the ceiling to shake...
#2 was practicing the piano and was insisting that my help was required RIGHT THEN
#1 had chores done, but decided that it would be fun to repeatedly burst in on #3 and friends and scare them silly with fits of screaming and laughing and door slamming...
all the while I am trying to chop vegetables and get the soup for dinner made...
next comes a phone call from my Mr. saying he wasn't going to be home until right before I had to leave to help at a Relief Society activity...
Today I almost lost my mind...
Today I lost my temper a few times...
Today I almost cried into the soup...(that wouldn't have tasted to good)
Today I was so stressed I was shaking as I tried to ladle the soup into the bowls...
Today is now almost over..
Tomorrow I will wake up ready for a new day...
Tomorrow I will pray to be more patient and kind...
Tomorrow I will do better...
Tomorrow I will most likely be able to handle 5...easy peasy...
but...
Sometimes 5 is hard...
Most days I can swim quite well through the-- homework, chores, piano, reading, cooking, feeding, wiping, nursing, patching, cleaning, reminding, folding, running, and lifting --that is required when handling 5..
Most days I have moments where I look around and all 5 are getting along, happy, playing, and quiet...
Most days these moments bring a burst of warmth into my heart that reminds me why all the work is worth it...
Most days...but today was not like most days...
Today 5 was hard...
Today each one of my 5 required me all at the same time...
#5 was hungry & crying and wanted to be picked up...
#4 was crying and wanted out...
#3 had 2 little friends over and they were jumping off of the bed and causing the ceiling to shake...
#2 was practicing the piano and was insisting that my help was required RIGHT THEN
#1 had chores done, but decided that it would be fun to repeatedly burst in on #3 and friends and scare them silly with fits of screaming and laughing and door slamming...
all the while I am trying to chop vegetables and get the soup for dinner made...
next comes a phone call from my Mr. saying he wasn't going to be home until right before I had to leave to help at a Relief Society activity...
Today I almost lost my mind...
Today I lost my temper a few times...
Today I almost cried into the soup...(that wouldn't have tasted to good)
Today I was so stressed I was shaking as I tried to ladle the soup into the bowls...
Today is now almost over..
Tomorrow I will wake up ready for a new day...
Tomorrow I will pray to be more patient and kind...
Tomorrow I will do better...
Tomorrow I will most likely be able to handle 5...easy peasy...
but...
Sometimes 5 is hard...
5 comments:
Thanks for being honest. 5 (or in my case only 4!) is definitely hard and you are allowed to vent and get it out! You are an amazing mom and I know tomorrow will be a better day!
Heather, you give moms like me hope! I'm so grateful for the atonement and that because of it, every single day can be a fresh start. Hope your tomorrow is wonderful!
You're like Wonder Woman to me. If anyone can do it, you can. Not only can you do it, you do it WELL. Hopefully I can handle my two half as well as you handle your five.
I'm starting to tear up just thinking about you yesterday!
5 against 1 are never good odds! I'm always rooting for the underdog though! You can do it!!!
Hopefully that was the storm before the calm this week.
Way to put it to words!!! Amen! I know just what you are going through. I have had similar moments with my five! I love how you write about praying for more patients and kindness...but I bet you are doing pretty darn good in those areas. Aren't we just too critical of ourselves? I bet you are doing great. But you are right, 5 is hard sometimes. Keep up the good work, I will keep you in mind next time I'm about to loose my mind... realizing that I'm not alone. :)
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